As afraid as you might be and as big as the fallout may seem, the universe works in amazing ways. There may be a lot of truth to your fears, but honestly ask yourself the worst possible scenario. If that were to actually happen, what would you do? I used to imagine crazy, horrible, awful things. And none of them happened. But other painful things did.
You just don’t know.
I can say that the (quite substantial) pain I feel now is nothing compared to the pain I was in before, when I was constantly carrying around the fact that I was in a relationship that felt wrong in my center. Today’s pain is honest pain. It’s comes from the loss of something I value vs. the despondency of trying to make a life work that wasn’t right.
Before, my insides were completely twisted. Today, I can draw from a well of peace deep within my belly.
Anyway, all this to say that I feel you. It’s so hard to be in the in between. But you’ll figure it out, either way. Just be brave.