Today: Pay Attention

Came across some old photos by accident and have been carried away on a trip. Today: pay attention.

I am often unable to wrap my mind around Alma. The fact that she even exists, breathes, speaks, walks, smiles, blinks, produces tears, sings music, dances. It’s so far beyond my comprehension. I often experience the paradox of looking at her and feeling like I’ve never seen her before, she’s new again and again, like continually discovering a strange, beautiful, mysterious being who is so alien just by the impossibility of her existence, yet so intertwined with my own heart I experience her joy and pain before she does.

I can actually feel the slippage of time when I watch her do something, ever so gradually more independent, on her own. And the harder I grasp the more quickly it slips (of course). So I try to watch. Absorb. Be still. Notice. Stare. And there is never enough time.

Pay attention. Just yesterday there was this. Came across some old photos by accident and have been carried away on a trip.

Today: pay attention.

I am often unable to wrap my mind around Alma. The fact that she even exists, breathes, speaks, walks, smiles, blinks, produces tears, sings music, dances. It’s so far beyond my comprehension. I often experience the paradox of looking at her and feeling like I’ve never seen her before, she’s new again and again, like continually discovering a strange, beautiful, mysterious being who is so alien just by the impossibility of her existence, yet so intertwined with my own heart I experience her joy and pain before she does.

I can actually feel the slippage of time when I watch her do something, ever so gradually more independent, on her own. And the harder I grasp the more quickly it slips (of course). So I try to watch. Absorb. Be still. Notice. Stare. And there is never enough time.

Pay attention. Just yesterday there was this. :)

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